Casanova

I felt it and I still do. It's a repulsive yet magnetic feeling, which is why I'm so confused. I keep thinking about it. I'm losing my smiles, my logic, and my ability to decide what's right and what's wrong of me to do. I hate the emotions it brings upon me and how these emotions overpower my sensibility and judgement. It's a love-hate relationship but I want to help you. I've decided that I don't want you to be the only one miserable. I'll help you move on, even if it jeopardizes my relationship with others, and even if the aftermath will leave me more miserable than before. It's time, so take the last I have to offer because life doesn't give us many chances.



I saw her. She was strolling in the neighbourhood, her petite and familiar frame, bringing back nostalgic memories of my childhood. I don't have much memories of being a child. They are probably hidden in the deeper parts of my mind, the thousands (and millions?) of them, which will flash through my mind and remind me of my life when it's time for me to go. Her family stayed two stories above mine in the same block. I was practically raised by her since I was two years old as both my parents were (and still are) working during the day. My nan reminds me everytime without fail that there ARE people out there who genuinely care and do not expect anything from me in return. That is why I always feel warm-hearted when I see my grandmother and her. Of course, my other family members as well, though others could sometimes get a little too critical or judgemental when I say or do unconventional things. But back to the topic. To be 100% honest to myself, the only people in this world who genuinely care for and love me sincerely from the heart is my family and I love them. I'd be nothing without them. I can imagine how depressed I'd be. So, a reminder to every out there (not that some of you may need it).. Treat the ones who love you and expect nothing in return the way they deserve. Because you will never know when you may lose the chance to give in return. God bless my loved ones!